[DejaVu]

My opinion as I throw it in with the lot.
If your apologies and regret, are sincere as you have suggested and you are wishing to have good Karma flow through you, more power to you. You cannot blame everyone for their … disbelief / utter lack of belief in this regard.
I have read back in the forums to many a rude, sarcastic and mocking comments from you, hence why it makes everyone wonder if you are indeed sincere or having the ravings of one seriously under the influence. I guess we could put if off to being off your meds if you are bipolar, but there is no need to get rude or fall into a TMI area.
As with everything, to gain positive energy you have to give it. Because I have read how you have responded in the past to comments, posts and so forth, I will believe it when I see it. But wish you the best of luck in your endeavor.
On that note, preaching (as you did in response to Dingus) should be saved for the pulpit or however you choose to express your religious beliefs, not in a forum setting. I for one can say there is no bigger turn off than someone who has no clue as to my beliefs to think they have the right to preach to me as if it will have meaning outside of their own thoughts.
Again, all said in my own opinion of your many posts, but wish you luck on your journey to find good Karma.